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Gabbar – Osteofighter!

Dec 07

Thank you all for your kind thoughts, support and prayers. We cremated Gabbar yesterday evening. We are going to collect his ashes this morning and will hold on to them as we heal. In a couple of months, we will travel south of India to Chennai, the city of his birth and where he grew up most of his life. There is a beach behind the Dune Resort on the outskirts, just before the city of Pondicherry. It was his favourite place in the world. He would be scared of the waves, but refuse to leave the shore. He would run along the shoreline keeping JUST a safe distance from the waves and get scandalized when he would get wet. Suzy and him would then play in the sand to the point where their muscles would get so sore, they wouldn’t be able to get up for the next 2 days. We hope to make our way back there and scatter his ashes into the ocean from that beach.

In the meantime, Suzy has taken over the role being our hero, saviour, emotional pillar of strength. She’s of course feeling his void, but showing us that life must go on. She’s keeping us on our toes and makes sure nothing changes. I have to still wake up at 6am and take her for a long walk. I have to still get back and prepare the morning meal and feed. The only difference is that Gabbar now accompanies us in spirit instead of body.

My wife has been feeling since we got home last evening from the cremation that Gabbar is reaching out to us through Suzy. I too have been noticing certain behaviour in Suzy that is more characteristic of Gabbar than her. While going on a walk, Gabbar would turn back every 10 feet or so to just make sure me and his mom were behind him. Suzy suddenly started doing that yesterday. She’s not one to cuddle up for more than 5-6 seconds. She’s often like a cat. A quick hello and then gets on with her day. But like Gabbar, she’s been following us where we go, keeping close, keeping in physical contact a lot more than she used to.

When Suzy picks up a toy that’s lying around, she ALWAYS brings it back and keeps it right beside her, just in case Gabbar would steal it. This morning, I noticed one of Gabbar’s toys lying around. A pink little squeaky. This was a good 20 feet away from the kitchen around the wall. I thought fleetingly about how Gabbar used to trot around in the mornings holding it in his mouth as I prepared their food. So I noticed this toy, left it there, came back into the kitchen, put a few eggs to boil on the stove, turned around. And there, just outside the kitchen where his rug still is, was the toy. Carefully placed on his rug. Suzy was lying down in another corner far from it. All this happened in a span of 15-20 seconds. Maybe I’m reading too much into it. Or maybe Suzy picked it up and gave it to him. She can feel him more than we can. It was a sign. He’s here.

4 comments so far

  1. otisandtess
    8:46 am - 12-7-2016

    Thank you for sharing such beautiful pictures of a happier time. Tess also was a great comfort to me when Otis passed.

  2. mom2shelby
    5:12 pm - 12-7-2016

    HUGS!!! Those are definitely signs his spirit is with you very loudly and very present. May that continue to comfort you in the days and weeks to come. I recall when I first brought my new girl home, after Shelby had passed, I heard a lot more “clickety click’ on the floors when the new girl was sitting next to me. I know 100% that was Shelby visiting!

    Peace and love,
    Alison with Spirit Shelby in her heart

  3. Deb
    8:27 pm - 12-7-2016

    He absolutely is with you!! Our angels will be with us forever. Hold tight to the love. Deb and Angel Bandit

  4. benny55
    4:34 am - 12-8-2016

    I read your previous blog and just couldn’t get myself together enough to write. As you can see, we are all grieving with you. We all fell in love with Gabbar and that happy smile of his. The love you and your wife have dor him is rock solid and such a beautiful thing to watch!

    Yiu have done a lovely tribute here. The pictures are wonderful. Thanknyiu for sharing these happy times with us. And, an aside, thank yiu for sharing in an earlier blog the garlic, curminin, etc protocol you were using. Clearly this piece of crap had already plotted it’s course but who knows, maybe it really did delay the inevitable. Maybe it kept the quality intact longer than had he not been on those therapies.

    I DEFINITELY believe Suzy is feeling Gabbar’s presence!! And the story about Gabbar’s toy…WOW!!!! In our human form we have become separated from our ,”source”, our “energy”, ut it’s always there within us. A d it doesn’t go away just because we shed ourselves of our earth clothes. Yes, Gabbar is still there…within you and around you! I’m so glad you and your wife are open to staying connected to our Spirit selves. Yiu are enlightened Souls with enlightened dogs!! Gabbar truly is a Sage!

    PLEASE continue to stay connected! We love heaw a put Gabbar, and Suzy too! We know how hard this is right now. We know how much you hurt and how you miss caring for Gabbar. Even with sweet Suzynthere, you still feel a void and a loss of caregiving routine. I’m so glad you are able to share so many happy memories though. That’s what Gabbar wants you to focus on …all the happy times!

    Gabbar “close-up photo” is absolutely beautiful! Talk about seeing the light within….yeah, Gabbar is light and love!!

    Love to all

    Sally and My Chunky Spiritual Being Happy Hannah and Merry Myrtle and Frankie too!

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